40+

I am still here. Pregnant, huge and uncomfortable. I am reaching that cranky pregnant lady stage, I officially don't do anything but give commands from the couch. Last week I tried everything as hard as I could to have a baby and this week, I have given up. I am getting up at least every 2 hrs at night to use the bathroom. I joke that the warm up for my daily workout is reaching to turn out the lamp on my bedside table. After all, rolling over, and getting out of bed numerous times a night is quite a workout.

Last Wed when I went to the Dr. I was 3.5 cm dilated and 50% effaced and here I am still no labor. Thurs and Fri I really thought I was in labor (which has happened a lot over the past month) I contracted, quite painfully and regularly for about 6 hrs each of those nights. Right as I was about to call my Dr. I decided to see if I could get some rest. Next thing I know, Kevin is waking me up at 6:30 am. Oh no! I was so upset I slept for about 1 hr and my contractions totally stopped. I literally cried. Since then I have been having very mild contractions and a grumpy disposition. I just can't wait to have her out of me. I am so sick of being in pain. The worst part is all the fake contractions.

I REALLY wanted to go natural with this baby. I took 8 weeks of Bradley classes only 3 of which my husband was able to make it to, I will be so upset if I need to be induced on Thurs. I know I will have this baby in my arms(and hopefully home) by the weekend but I am still quite upset by how long and uncomfortable this has been going on. Technically I have been in labor for 5 weeks. That is when they put me on bed rest. If I was not experiencing any labor pains and didn't know that I am already almost half way dilated I feel like I might handle this better. I know what ever is supposed to happen will but it is still so frustrating.
Hopefully I will go into labor tonight or tomorrow and then I won't have to be induced, we will see. Until then, if you come over you'll find me on the couch, with a kitchen full of dishes, laundry that needs to be done and taking a nap!

Oh wow is me....

Pardon me while I wallow in my misery for a minute...........

I am ready for Ed to come home. I am tired, I have not cooked in 4 months and am quite sick of crappy food, or eggs, every night for dinner. I am done with yelling, fighting children, oh and I am done being pregnant. Not really I still have a while to go. I am tired and cranky and just want someone else to put my kids to bed without having to pay them.  Ok that is all. I will back update with pictures etc. soon. Thanks!

A few thoughts

On this holiday weekend, almost 4th of July, I am here thinking......

1. I am so glad Ed is home, he was called out to fix a plane with 2 hrs notice. Luckily he was gone only a little over 24 hrs, location was drivable. However he has only slept a few hours.

2. I am so grateful for all the people in our history and present and future that serve our country in any way. I could not have all of the wonderful things I have if I didn't live here.

3. My family is really fantastic..... my house is completely trashed because for the past 3 days we have all been playing and having fun together.

All in all, I guess today I am just feeling very thankful for the things that I have in my life. Life is not always easy but it is an adventure all the same!

Winter blahs

Ed works every other weekend. Today is a work weekend. It is just the kids and I.

I should be cleaning like a crazy woman
Instead, we got up at 8:30, watched a movie.
Ate pancakes for breakfast at 11:00
and then I invited people for play dates this week, and spent some time on the computer.
We will play and then I will probably clean like a mad woman for a little while just because I can't take it anymore.
I can't wait for winter to end and we can go outside and play. It is warm-ish today but not enough for me.
So if you stop by we are all in pajamas, lazily playing and having fun.

Sorry for the huge mess. It'll be clean by Tues.

Just so you don't think I am hibernating

We haven't been doing much, I have winter problems, all I want to do is hibernate and get fat. I am always cold and tired.
That said, I hate it when people complain about the winter and they live in a place that gets cold. Seriously, if you can't hack it, MOVE!

Ok so we have been doing a lot of homework, t.v. watching, sleeping and eating.

Today is 42 degrees out and my kids are outside trying to shovel the ice from the yard so they can play. Tomorrow a balmy 50, look out jackets you might not go on tomorrow.

That is all, we are alive and well, I am just a little slow in the winter.

Safety Kids

Do you remember the Safety Kids? We listened to their tapes when we were kids, I don't know anyone else who has ever heard of them.

Mom where did you find them?

They were a club of kids who taught safety through song.

I often think in song, someone says something to me and I get a song stuck in my head until someone else says something and I think of a new song, in my head I live in a musical of all crazy mixed up music.

Usually days that are tough I get a safety kids song from my childhood. It is a song that talks about what to do if someone tries to steal you.....

"Sometimes, you just gotta yell and scream
sometimes it's the only thing to do
noisy as a firetruck you just have to open up and get the crowds attention turned to you. "

After each line is a Wooo wooo, fire truck sound.

Sometimes I just feel like that, I am sure you all do too. I never really knew this motherhood thing would have SO many challenging days. I am also proud to say my kids know this song by heart because I sing it to them every time they throw a fit.

Tomorrow I will have to write about great things, so I don't dwell on the negative.

Confessions

So I have been thinking that my kids watch WAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY too much t.v.
At least the national average sometimes more.
I want to cut down on this, but they will be BOOORRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDDDD.
Is there anyone out there whose kids only watch about 1 hr a day or less and what do you do with them, especially for a quiet time?

The spring is almost over

The past 6 weeks have FLOWN by.............

We have been so busy, too busy.

I have come to the realization that my kids don't need lots of activities, they need time to play at home, with each other, or with friends. I need to slow down. I am hoping that summer will let us do that. Maybe I'll be more patient if I am not hurrying them everywhere?

On the agenda..........This weekend: Strawberry picking. Let the beginning of canning season begin. Yeah fresh fruit and veggis!!!


On a side note:

Have you ever tried to run numerous errands with 3 kids, nearly impossible. We miss you Papa. I miss your great chauffeur abilities, and the fact that I could run into a store without being a negligent parent.

recent struggles

I have been going through some struggles lately concerning church. I couple people have complained about the noise level of my kids and I have overheard them. 1 person said it to me, in a very kind way, I am very grateful to this person the most.
A little background, if you do not know my kids they are very energetic and loud, also I go to church alone with 2 children under 5. It really kinda hurt my feelings especially when I overheard someone talking about me to someone else. Last Sunday I didn't go to Sacrament meeting because of how I felt, I kind of thought why bother. But I still wanted my kids to go to Primary and I'm the primary chorister. Today I decided to tough it out again and if they were loud or naughty then that was it. They were pretty good today, I only had to take Kevin out once and I was able to leave Anya with the family sitting across from us so I didn't have to worry about her and just concentrate on him. I have been having a hard time with quiet things for them to do and the church bag gets old quick. I feel like I have to change it every couple of weeks. Any ideas would be much appreciated. I think things are going to be ok and this is going to be a struggle I just have to suck up and deal with.

Vacation

... for my husband that is. Is it wrong that I am seriously jealous. I need to get over it. I am just feeling a little slighted that he is hanging out with no kids for 2 days. I will never get that opportunity. OK enough of a vent. I'll be over it soon.